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Inside of my mind are a million thoughts.
I can swim in them like an open sea.
I pour over words with dire intent,
Indefinite if the world will ever mend.

No matter where I go, I see things that need fixed.
Never-ending is the sea of strife and agony.
Never will I be able to cure the blight
Nestled deep in the heart of humanity.

Forever is my journey, perhaps to never end,
Finding union of my mind, soul, and flesh.
For what good is this being if not tethered together?
Freedom through the tight bonds of unity.

Pressured to 'blend,' assimilate into one,
Practically molten and poured into a mold.
Perfect, I am, though, just as I was born.
Phantasms, some of the toughest obstacles to clairvoyance.
Wikipedia description:

"Healers are introspective, cooperative, informative, and attentive. Their tranquil and reserved exterior masks a passionate inner life. Healers care deeply about causes that interest them, and they often pursue those causes with selfless devotion. They are highly compassionate and empathetic to the needs of others, seeking to bring peace, health, and integrity to their companions and to society at large. They want to heal the problems that trouble individuals and correct the conflicts that divide social groups.

Healers tend to be private individuals who have a strong sense of right and wrong and an idealistic worldview. They are deeply committed to things that are positive or good and may be inspired to make extraordinary sacrifices in attempts to achieve their ideals. They are prone to errors of fact as they follow their feelings more than they follow logical analysis. However, following their feelings also means that Healers seldom make errors of feeling.

Healers are often misunderstood as children. In practical minded families, their devotion to idealism may be frowned upon and may even be punished. Most other role variants can shrug off the parental expectations that don’t fit them, but Healers are greatly affected by it. They want to please their parents and their siblings and, in attempt to do this, they may mask or hide their differences. This can create inner turmoil within the Healer. Healers are often better at detecting this inner turmoil than other role variants. Healers seek unity of mind, body and spirit, perhaps because of the inner turmoil caused during their upbringing.

Healers are adaptable, patient with complicated situations, and welcoming of new ideas and information. They are impatient with routine details. As they are aware of people’s feelings, Healers relate well with others. They are also comfortable working alone given their private nature. Healers have an interest in scholarly activities and often have exceptional language skills.

Occurring in only about one percent of the population, Healers can easily feel isolated. They value harmony and integrity in human relationships, but often find these values to be out of step with the more concrete pursuits of the rest of the world. Feeling "different," they may wonder whether something is wrong with them. But those differences—an ethical nature, a devotion to ideals, a commitment to harmonious interaction—are in fact some of their greatest strengths.

One of the rarest of the types, Healers can be both extremely romantic and extremely independent. They are likely to want a mate who won't shrink from their expansive imagination. They are often attracted to those whom others have overlooked, given the Healers' rare ability to see the positive qualities that lie beneath the surface.

In romantic relationships, Healers generally seek mates who, like themselves, have a highly developed inner life. An ideal mate must be open to the Healers' expressions of unique ideas. Healers may need long periods of privacy, followed by periods of intense intimacy, so they are best suited to a partner who can adapt to these changing needs.

Generally thoughtful and considerate, Healers are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they are deeply caring and genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making Healers valued friends and confidants. They do not like conflict and go to great lengths to avoid it. In conflict situations, they place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on how the conflict makes people feel, a trait that can make them appear irrational and illogical. In such situations, Healers may benefit from stepping out of the situation temporarily so they can reflect and replenish their reserves. The INFP's long-term mate is the ENFP.

Perfectionists, Healers have very high standards. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. They may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards may be higher than those of other members of the group. This can lead them to become overly controlling. Healers are often well served to balance their high ideals with the requirements of everyday living.

Healers tend to be flexible, unless one of their values are violated. When their value system is threatened, Healers can become aggressive defenders of their cause, and any project or job that Healers adopt is likely to become one of their causes. Although Healers do not generally focus on specifics, they cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working on a project that engrosses them.

Healers are often talented writers. Some may be awkward and uncomfortable expressing themselves orally, but demonstrate a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. Healers appear frequently in social service professions, such as counseling or teaching."




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It's interesting... Until I really started reading into this personality type (which I've actually gotten rated as since I was 12 or 13, which was around the first time I ever took a Jungian personality test), I always miscalculated my actual, deeper, inner personality. I have so many layers, masks, and walls built up around my core that it's become extremely difficult to really figure out what is my core self and what is one of my many outer layers. For instance, in the core, I strongly stand by values and morals, I have strong motivations for causes I believe in, I have immense amounts of empathy and the urge for diplomacy and conciliation, I want to, or wish that I could, solve the world's problems in one fell swoop (without, of course, causing a whole new set of problems afterwards), and have always been attracted to people who others tossed aside, or who were eclectic and eccentric. However, my most outer layer is often that of the pessimist and cynic, and sometimes even that of the aggressor. I often am quick to anger (developed mostly as a defence mechanism to push people away before I do some real damage, despite inevitably doing major damage regardless.) I often say that the world is a cesspool and that humans are largely and at their core bad, and must strive to be good. I often have very harsh and bleak outward opinions. There are times when I don't care at all, where I give up on the world and on myself. I have no passions at these times, no motivations or willpower. And, yet other times, I'm extremely outgoing, lacking inhibitions, fast-paced and erratic. These all, though, I contribute largely to my bipolar. There are my extremes, and then there is my core. My core has always been much more positive, spiritual, motivated, and empathetic than my various exteriors and masks. My onion-like exteriors have developed over time from outward influences and pressures, often from delusional ideas of what I "should" be like in a given situation. For instance, if I'm depressed, I then feel like I "should" care about nothing, have no willpower, and do nothing, and sometimes that idea in itself is enough to make those realities, even if the depression alone doesn't cause such intensities. When I'm manic, I think I "should" be erratic, incoherent, odd, and eccentric, so that idea alone can be enough to make those realities, even when the mania alone doesn't cause those behaviors. So others, and what I think they think I should be like based on my disorders, my appearance, my lifestyles, my deeds, and so on, often mold these layers that become disorganised, and distort my truest self.

So, thanks to these descriptions, these 'personality types,' and a number of revelations I've had over the years, and especially the past several months, my truest, core self is finally starting to break free and take control of the reigns once more. My mind was always disorderly and distorted, but I'm striving to clarify it. My body was always shattered, beaten, and broken, but I'm working on healing it. And my soul was always trapped, isolated, and overlooked, and I'm starting to unify it. I'm starting to unite my body, mind, and soul to form harmony within myself, and in doing so, hope to be able to better aid those around me, to make a better impact on the world, and be true to myself. Even if my intense anxieties are alleviated one day, I know that my true self will remain more soft-spoken, preferring peace and tranquility, aiding others when possible, and delving deep into academics. I won't be the life of a party any time in the future, or all too outgoing, because that's not my true self. I may be euphoric, energetic, and bursting with ideas from time to time, but I will always prefer a close-knit group of a few friends over a crowd. I will always prefer working in solitude over working in groups. I will always prefer academics over kinesthetics. And, one day, I believe I will bring my highs and my lows into a harmonious balance without destroying their somewhat elusive beauty.
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DarkPhantom9000 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2015
This is me. An INFP.
You described it really well, and the Wikipedia article was helpful too.
I hope that you will get the chance to live perfectly. Since that is something we all want.
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evryrosehasitsthorns Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
A whole lot has changed since I wrote that, and perhaps even since you wrote this comment, but I inevitably always come back to my INFP, idealist roots... Sometimes, how life is so overwhelming, it seems my life, my sense of self, my ideals, my beliefs all shatter, crumble, and turn to dust. But alas, even when my entire world outlook seemingly changes, I always seem to return to my INFP core. That's just who I am.
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