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Chaz  

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April 29, 2008

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 29, 2008, 10:57 PM
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: my brother and Justin playing Rainbow Six.
  • Reading: my own words being typed...
  • Watching: my life go by, wondering what happens next.
  • Playing: with computer generated drums.
  • Drinking: the colors of the night...
It was a typical day at school, simply trying to survive it. I just sat there, thinking about the homework I missed the day before and the homework soon to come. My brain is seemingly weary and exhausted for little reason, and I just want to drop dead while writing all of this. I try to think of this as a soon-to-be blog, and, even possibly a form of a journal to which I may be more motivated to continuously work on, unlike my actual journal. And I seem to be writing about almost anything that comes to mind – dozing out of this world and into my own. Sometimes I really can't tell the difference between reality and dreams. Most of yesterday was one big blur.

Apparently, I blacked-out during most of yesterday, though, I do vaguely remember waking up, sweaty, after a bad dream, right around 4:00 or 4:30 P.M. Yes, I was probably asleep until as late as 4:30 P.M. And again, I find myself dozing – fading into the "other world," as I now name it – a place of dreams and perils – how romantic. Why do I keep on daydreaming?

I started reading a book called The Gospel According to Larry. It is interesting – having some refreshing, dry humour – encouraging me to write what I am writing right now. Right now, I would much rather be on my computer than being at school, I would rather be typing this than writing this with a pencil.* The only class I need right now is English. Even then, I just want to stop…



After most of the day had already passed, I finally woke up – after time that passed and some coffee to which actually calms me – and began to read "the book," again. I've begun to notice just how much of a conservative hippie. I hardly show it at all. And as I finished my coffee (which probably cost $3.00 for eight ounces,) I felt like a snobby, gluttonous hypocrite. Is this what I am destined to be – a gluttonous hypocrite?

And the luxuries we enjoy? Selfish much? I went to bowling with my step-father. What do the poor families in the Philippines, or Indonesia, or any other third-world nation do for fun? Perhaps nothing at all. Do they life (if really possible,) sleep, work, and eat – nothing more? Many people take their little (or big) luxuries for granted. Are we really that selfish and cruel?

I attempt to write something that is worth something (at least) nearly every day and feel I have failed miserably. Do I make people think? Do I use efficient enough words? Do I say the right things? And most importantly: Do I make people think and/or take action about what I say? I just ask if I can make a single difference. Sometimes I feel I make no difference at all and that I am being rather worthless, or simply meaningless in the world. Of course, I fell I need to stop and think what change I, myself, have made. Have I changed? Should I change before I try to make chance?
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*I eventually typed this up, obviously...

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 14
  • Current Residence: WA, USA
  • Interests: Poetry, psychology, and the darkness.
  • Favourite movie: Grave of the Fireflies
  • Favourite band or musician: Currently, The Blakes...
  • Favourite genre of music: Emo/Indie
  • Favourite artist: Escher
  • Favourite poet or writer: Robert Frost or Edgar Allen Poe...
  • Favourite photographer: BubbleBum
  • Wallpaper of choice: Microsoft's "Peace"
  • Favourite game: Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2 - soon to be PS3 and the Wii
  • Favourite cartoon character: Naota
  • Personal Quote: "There is no Black or White... There are only vairiants of Grey..."
  • Tools of the Trade: Laptop... Pen & Paper... My mind...

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*MyTearzRunBlack:iconMyTearzRunBlack: Apr 10, 2008, 3:37:33 AM
Thank you so much for supporting me by adding me to your :+devwatch:

It really means a lot
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Have a lovely day new friend!


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*chizzaz:iconchizzaz: Apr 9, 2008, 11:29:48 PM
Thanks for the add!

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~evryrosehasitsthorns:iconevryrosehasitsthorns: Mar 30, 2008, 2:47:36 PM
Your welcome. =]

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愛の落下雨
ai no rakka u...

There is no Black or White... There are only variants of Grey...

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“I’m not black, I’m not white, not foreign…just different in the mind – different brain
~LadyPestilence:iconLadyPestilence: Mar 30, 2008, 12:08:09 AM
Thanks alot for the watch!! :heart:

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~Niftee:iconNiftee: Mar 24, 2008, 8:49:27 PM
Thanks for the watch!
:)
~evryrosehasitsthorns:iconevryrosehasitsthorns: Mar 22, 2008, 2:24:53 AM
No problem. =]

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愛の落下雨
ai no rakka u...

There is no Black or White... There are only variants of Grey...

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“I’m not black, I’m not white, not foreign…just different in the mind – different brain
~echoing-radiance:iconechoing-radiance: Mar 12, 2008, 2:32:59 AM
Thank you for the watch :3

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And said no goodbyes.
As my frozen pulse quickens
And the black plot thickens..~
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~Romancing-the-Broken:iconRomancing-the-Broken: Feb 3, 2008, 2:55:47 PM
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away

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*Endien:iconEndien: Jan 3, 2008, 3:23:32 PM
thank you so much ♥

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~3an:icon3an: Oct 18, 2007, 9:35:40 PM
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~angelsins:iconangelsins: Sep 29, 2007, 1:13:15 AM
...you're only 13?!

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~Hunny-forgotten:iconHunny-forgotten: Sep 22, 2007, 4:53:19 PM
hey.. umm idk u but u seem like a kewl person. im emo too. umm msg me okay?

bye

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~devilkrissie:icondevilkrissie: Sep 16, 2007, 11:52:08 PM
love your style... =D

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~rf7:iconrf7: Sep 16, 2007, 11:28:29 AM Mood: Wow!
that song cold lips was brilliant for your age

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~NikkiJonetsu:iconNikkiJonetsu: Aug 17, 2007, 9:41:52 PM
HI CHAZ THANKS FOR THE FAVESSSSSSSS!

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~NikkiJonetsu:iconNikkiJonetsu: Apr 24, 2007, 9:17:37 PM
Thanks for teh watch, Chaz-buddy!

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~NikkiJonetsu:iconNikkiJonetsu: Apr 8, 2007, 7:37:46 AM
CHAZ, I FOUND YOU!

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~evryrosehasitsthorns:iconevryrosehasitsthorns: Mar 25, 2007, 5:28:49 AM
Like I said, if I can, I will. =D

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ai no rakka u...

There is no Black or White... There are only variants of Grey...

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“I’m not black, I’m not white, not foreign…just different in the mind – different brain
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